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2010-03-08T14:48:00.004+08:00

this blog is gone but i just need some space to organise my thoughts and visualise my routes. so.. this is for me not for you guys:P

1. NTU/NUS/SMU
appeal. or
apply to a random course, excel in it, apply to dean after year 1 and switch faculty.

2. SIM
do my mass comm/econs there, apply to switch uni after year 1 with an insane GPA. (yeah right.) alternatively.. if my GPA cmi, then do masters in NUS/NTU after i graduate. wow. but if my GPA cmi, how can i do masters right. haha.

3. retake Alevels
sounds stupid to do so cos the last year i can retake my alevels is this year, considering the fact that phy(spa) and chem(spa) is examined for the last time in 2010 (which is now.) and SPA exam results only can be brought forward by one year. sounds quite impossible to take it this year, which means i've to start studying immediately after i POP, and if i screw this one up more, im back to square one or worse off.

4. go australia
no money. end of talk.

5. other private Us
not appealing. end of talk.

6. pray.
enough said.

2009-08-17T01:01:00.001+08:00

today, i sent my best friend off at the airport.

its been 6 years since we first talked, since i made my first friend from the yf, and since that first conversation, my life has changed.

i thank God for blessing me with such a wonderful brother, whom im not worthy of, whom i dont deserve. he taught me so many things, including how to love and how to care.

i miss the many nights of endless conferences, times where we would go to church extremely early, before the gates were open and the lights were on. the many breakfasts we had together (for about 4-5 years worth!) where it never felt like a routine to me but rather something that i really treasured each week. the countless movies, dinners, cooking sessions, etc.

i have gone through many ups and downs in the past 6 years of my life, and besides God, he was the next one that was always there for me.

though at many times i may have been selfish, but he was still my brother that i always looked up to. we share so many common interests and this unexplainable bond which i treasure dearly and currently miss.

today, after knowing him for 6 years, i send him off for 4, and i look forward to the next 60 and eternity to come.

thank you wenyao for being a brother, teacher, a friend, and so much more(:

Psalm 27
Of David.

1 The LORD is my light and my salvation—
whom shall I fear?
The LORD is the stronghold of my life—
of whom shall I be afraid?

2 When evil men advance against me
to devour my flesh,
when my enemies and my foes attack me,
they will stumble and fall.

3 Though an army besiege me,
my heart will not fear;
though war break out against me,
even then will I be confident.

4 One thing I ask of the LORD,
this is what I seek:
that I may dwell in the house of the LORD
all the days of my life,
to gaze upon the beauty of the LORD
and to seek him in his temple.

5 For in the day of trouble
he will keep me safe in his dwelling;
he will hide me in the shelter of his tabernacle
and set me high upon a rock.

6 Then my head will be exalted
above the enemies who surround me;
at his tabernacle will I sacrifice with shouts of joy;
I will sing and make music to the LORD.

7 Hear my voice when I call, O LORD;
be merciful to me and answer me.

8 My heart says of you, "Seek his face!"
Your face, LORD, I will seek.

9 Do not hide your face from me,
do not turn your servant away in anger;
you have been my helper.
Do not reject me or forsake me,
O God my Savior.

10 Though my father and mother forsake me,
the LORD will receive me.

11 Teach me your way, O LORD;
lead me in a straight path
because of my oppressors.

12 Do not turn me over to the desire of my foes,
for false witnesses rise up against me,
breathing out violence.

13 I am still confident of this:
I will see the goodness of the LORD
in the land of the living.

14 Wait for the LORD;
be strong and take heart
and wait for the LORD.

2009-04-09T17:20:00.001+08:00

slower, stupider, now who knows whats next. haha):

Oh, to see the dawn
Of the darkest day:
Christ on the road to Calvary.
Tried by sinful men,
Torn and beaten, then
Nailed to a cross of wood.

This, the pow'r of the cross:
Christ became sin for us;
Took the blame, bore the wrath—
We stand forgiven at the cross.

Oh, to see the pain
Written on Your face,
Bearing the awesome weight of sin.
Ev'ry bitter thought,
Ev'ry evil deed
Crowning Your bloodstained brow.

Now the daylight flees;
Now the ground beneath
Quakes as its Maker bows His head.
Curtain torn in two,
Dead are raised to life;
"Finished!" the vict'ry cry.

Oh, to see my name
Written in the wounds,
For through Your suffering I am free.
Death is crushed to death;
Life is mine to live,
Won through Your selfless love.

What language shall I borrow to thank Thee, dearest friend,
For this Thy dying sorrow, Thy pity without end?
O make me Thine forever, and should I fainting be,
Lord, let me never, never outlive my love to Thee.

2009-03-13T00:19:00.003+08:00

going selangor for competition tmr. will be back on monday midnight!

sucks to know that we're drifting apart.

no yf no ss this week! no frisbee omg.

sucks sucks round of 4!

2009-03-11T00:28:00.003+08:00

^{Hebrews 2.

1}Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles, and let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us. ²Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy set before him endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God. ^{(2 Cor 4:}¹⁸ - So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.)
³Consider him who endured such opposition from sinful men, so that you will not grow weary and lose heart.

⁴In your struggle against sin, you have not yet resisted to the point of shedding your blood.

⁵And you have forgotten that word of encouragement that addresses you as sons:
"My son, do not make light of the Lord's discipline,
and do not lose heart when he rebukes you,
⁶because the Lord disciplines those he loves,
and he punishes everyone he accepts as a son."

⁷Endure hardship as discipline; God is treating you as sons. For what son is not disciplined by his father? ⁸If you are not disciplined (and everyone undergoes discipline), then you are illegitimate children and not true sons.

⁹Moreover, we have all had human fathers who disciplined us and we respected them for it. How much more should we submit to the Father of our spirits and live!

¹⁰Our fathers disciplined us for a little while as they thought best; but God disciplines us for our good, that we may share in his holiness.

¹¹No discipline seems pleasant at the time, but painful. Later on, however, it produces a harvest of righteousness and peace for those who have been trained by it.

¹²Therefore, strengthen your feeble arms and weak knees.

¹³"Make level paths for your feet,"so that the lame may not be disabled, but rather healed.

i need help! will reply... soon. (:

going selangor for fencing competition on friday after math paper.

cts now. BBCCU. hopefully! giving up on chem tml.

buying eb tml(:

really really want mercurial/talaria berry/white boots! no money): plus its limited edition and super pretty. ): ):

went to see nike sports tshirts and a hoodie super nice! its super ex. :/

physics paper made sense for once today.

need to go back.

everyday's passing too fast! dont want jc life to end so soon and become old.

march hols already packed.

really want to go sentosa to tan but no time.

i love being in school with all my friends.

im getting fat.

im getting fatter.

want to exercise more but i dont have time):

flicks are getting disgusting. ivp soon!

a divs. top4!

happy birthday wenyao and chuanling!

studying with my mom at plaza sing tmr.

j1 juniors are very cute.

i am hungry.

shall go school on thurs from morning till end of night study even though no school/no paper.

finally having some study mood. but only can activate in school library. die.

so many people i want to go out with and catchup):

i hate wearing watches.

2009-02-14T22:00:00.004+08:00

MUST WIN DOUBLE HEADER TOMORROW! 2pm, 4pm.

chem SPA yesterday. physics SPA on monday.

enjoyed IG outing on thurs! lost earphones. saving up to buy EB!

new J1s are here for training!

synod camp on friday!

must study harder, train even harder.

ivp seems like a lost cause. a divs and selangor open!

common test in 3 weeks.

47 days to glory.

2009-02-05T20:17:00.002+08:00

too stagnant and constant. have to improve everything! fencing, frisbee, studies. how come nothing's working): haha.

i will not sleep in chem lectures anymore!

will reply tags after i finish my overdue by one week chem SPA and gp essay.

2009-02-02T00:01:00.002+08:00

im dying under hw.

econs - 6 essays, 1 case study.
gp - 1 essay.
chem - SPA, tutorial, test structured essay qn.

thats all that's due tml, and i've done less than half. -.-

hw is killing me.

2009-01-27T22:09:00.003+08:00

joy
haha both take the same time to load for me so i never knew which one's faster! haha.
samantha
haha thanks! yeah of course must study hard. you too! haha.
joan
haha you arent making sense =.= as usual like most of the time! but its okay :D
tayyi
yeah me too! haha.
sacha
haha you tc too! you didnt go back on friday for the cny thing! haha had school?
steph
i'll try. haha my montage is cheat one la. use software make one. just a bit ex to print out haha.
jean
yes i am! haha. alright hope to see you next month! haha you sure you want odac. its quite fun yes but very crazy. haha.
sarah
hello thanks:)
lihui
haha okay then i'll faster go back then we can take loads of photos and facebook okay:D

my temper's getting extremely short nowadays so i apologise to anyone in advance if i accidentally get pissed off or sth. hahahah.

that aside, its chinese new year! my long awaited long holiday.

the concert was great as usual:D dance was hot, odac was cute. and a lil touching. and stupid. as usual. haha. that aside, the wahsei and HAHAHA was damn funny. haha. kuma kesa and i (along with the entire pac) were like laughing our lungs out or sth.

skipped training (whoops.) and went back to nh for cny celebration instead! met up with the infocomm people, drfoo! haha. loads of old teachers. but missed jesse lim. yeah.

left 4 dead:D

anyway cny being cny, i've been spamming pineapple tarts and champagne raisin cookies which are so delicious, and i feel the fats everytime i eat one. gotta train harder for the next few months to remove any traces:D

watched some hk movie (i thought it'd be lame) with my parents and the girl in there (louis koo's gf) is extremely cute to the max like x100000.

ultimate!

2009-01-13T23:45:00.002+08:00

chuanling
haha so cool?! but i like the video cos the rabbit's so cute:D haha.
tayyi
haha really? i never knew the old one was so laggy! cos it seemed fine to me -.- haha. okay glad this one's faster!
joan
laugh what what more?! haha. of course it rhymes dear.. its the same word =.= hahaha.

J2 feels sucky.

work hasnt sunk in, in even half force yet but the suckiness is creeping up to me.

trying to balance study days between studying and frisbee.

and i have no idea how im going to do 6 pullups by chinese new year..

2 cor 3:5
not that we are competent in ourselves to claim anything for ourselves, but our competence comes from God.

2009-01-10T22:13:00.002+08:00

yuki
haha long then special mah! never see so long before right haha:D
tayyi
thanks! but i dont think i want a benzene ring.. haha.
chuanling
haha complete opposite! so i dont feel so gloomy and blacky when i see my blog haha. the presto video? the cute cute rabbit one? haha how did you use that for invest video! hahaha.
lihui
haha yes i finally changed and updated after ages! (: haha its okay! anyway by time i ended the cca extravaganza thing ended also. haha.

haha im too lazy to upload photos.

im creating two huge collages to paste on my walls.. but its so ex to print them hugely! so im reconsidering.

haha novices today was crap. all the cj fencers didnt even make it past round of 32. which is not a very good sign. well. we thought we were prepared.. but oh well.

teams next week! :D

2009-01-07T23:20:00.003+08:00

colossians 3

1 Since, then, you have been raised with Christ, set your hearts on things above, where Christ is seated at he right hand of God.

2 Set your minds on things above, not on earthly things.

5 Put to death, therefore, whatever belongs to your earthly nature: sexual immorality, impurity, lust, evil desires and greed, which is idolatry.

7 You used to walk in these ways, in the life you once lived.

8 But now you must rid yourselves of all such things as these: anger, rage, malice, slander, and filthy language from your lips.

12 Therefore, as God's chosen people, holy and dearly loved, clothe yourselves with compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness and patience.

13 Bear with each other and forgive whatever grievances you may have against one another. Forgive as the Lord forgave you.

14 And over all these virtues put on love, which binds them all together in perfect unity.

2009-01-07T01:01:00.002+08:00

dont you think reading your archives sometimes make you flinch a bit and wonder, hmm. why did i ever post this when i was younger?

2009-01-07T00:43:00.002+08:00

naren
linked:D
nat
haha okay thanks:)
khai
linked:D and im lazy to blog about obs and ocip! haha zz :P
jr
more special! hahaha.
zhiyin
i where got punk! haha. im so guai:D
rachel
i wanted to go for chalet! in fact i went all the way to the mrt station.. but then the next shuttle bus was so long ago. so... sorry(:
lihui
busy! everywhere. :/ i want to hang out with you guys super soon!
desiree
linked! haha God bless you too! and yes i miss camp also(:
joan
i thought chickens dont make sounds?! haha you're absolutely random. haha okay its a good thing. i can laugh more:D
sam
yeah i miss camp a lot too! haha. i also want to stay longer.. haha.
jean
uh. merry christmas HAHA this is belated. yeah havent talked to you and a lot others for a long time!
chuanling
antipas:D the nicest group haha. i miss my hols too! well. i'm trying to revive my blog! haha. but laziness has a huge part to play.. and you sound very high. haha! :D
shantelle
haha shantelle and aaron theory! (: hmm yeah camp was good! but you can join us this year!
steph
i finally updated! :D hahaha.
vanessa
so do i. westmall! haha.
samantha
yeah finally updated after so long! im getting old haha.

okay step by step! post done, replies to tag done, next up will be photos.. if i can get so far.

im hungry again. this is retarded. im getting hungry like super often nowadays.

someone save me.... from my hunger.

2009-01-03T22:18:00.003+08:00

everyone's talking about 08. haha. so i just want to type this down so i can look back and remember this year too.

08 has been an extremely weird year for me in many ways. the ups and downs were much more than i ever imagined.

i thank God for bringing me to cj. i still remember the first day i stepped in with adelaine and kerong and weijie and we were all saying we would never want to come back for 2nd intake cos we all wanted SA! but He has His wonderful plans and everything just works out. also to ig 30, 27, t15 and t16.

though i lost a few close friends this year, i thank God for bringing back other friends as well, esp those i've been praying for from time to time.

i think im getting old. seeing the youths and young kids in YF and during camp is extremely encouraging. yf had a huge number of youths for our first meeting yesterday, but i really hope this year would be different, that all of them would stay. cos its very saddening to see anyone leave, and most of the time they do.

this year, my new year resolution (anyway why do people only make resolutions in the new year?!) is not to bother about my alevels.

all i want for this year is to grow closer to God, and glorify Him in all that i do, and i'll just do whatever i can for the exams and leave everything else to Him. i hope im not typing this cos of any short spiritual high but cos i mean it.

to learn that everything's for His glory and not mine, to repent because im extremely unworthy, to have faith, let go and let God.

on the other hand, im sorry there are too many events to blog about! haha sorry thats what happens when i get too lazy.

millions of trainings, frisbee, winter league, OBS, batam OCIP, yf camp, fm open, christmas, stayovers at joan's house, beatrice's house and D's house, michael's birthday surprise, omega night.

haha its been a totally packed and fun holiday:D

i'll.... reply tags another day. why not all of you hope that day comes soon and not be as late as this post(:

2008-11-13T01:54:00.001+08:00

im damn hungry now. i feel like eating curry chicken and KFC. my goodness.

im eating cereal now to appease myself.. i wish my cereal had banana. and more strawberries. its a mix.

its 157am now =.=

2008-11-11T23:10:00.002+08:00

k7
yep:D haha now more partying cos we're promoted and no pw:D waha.
tayyi
haha i dont think 2 months possible. i havent played since weeks ago. lazy arh. and busy haha!
marianne
sorry lah! i dont update often nowadays. hmm but def got IG outing soon! after their alevels(:
lihui
your new blog! haha omg you've gone through 2 new blogs since you tagged. haha.
samantha
haha yep she's quite cute! haha.
steph
school's ended. haha.
lihui
updated:D
shantelle, jean, samantha, benita, joan, chuanling, lihui
haha yep! thanks loads all of you:DD at least all's fine now(: haha.
tayyi
haha my school this year no supp paper, no conditional promotion. but thank God for moderation haha.
cindy
haha no prob:D hahaha.
jean
faith and hope! haha yep i believe in that too:D i have some new wire in my mouth and it cuts my lip like crazy when i play with it:/ haha.
benita
haha thanks again:D yeah hor! i just realised dont have your photo =.= haha i'll go hunt wenyao's thingy for photos of your birthday.. with your photo. haha:D

2008-11-10T23:08:00.003+08:00

hello i havent been blogging for eons. haha. im sorry. just lazy.

my hols are packed like crazy. i've obs and ocip batam next week and next next week, yf camp, chalets, and fencing training 6 times a week, excluding free fencing and frisbee 4 times a week.

hmm. im going to start studying next month. haha. i think.

i promoted:D

thank God. i think it was purely by His blessing. haha.

current affairs - A (okay this isnt counted. haha.)
math - B
econs - B
GP - D
phy - S
chem - U

it would have been fine without the S and U but well. i think i need phy and chem tuition. haha.

let me try to recall what happened in the past month.

OP's finished, so i've seen the last of PW. finally.

i went for a cat D referee course last monday, and its a waste of my 20 bucks (not that i paid for it, my mom/dad) but still. my goodness. haha. but queenie vanessa sherrie kahseng yuchen and i just went out lor. it was quite fun i think. haha.

we had surprise party for kuma many weeks back, and it was quite fun too:D buying the retarded stuff and going to his house quietly. sent bong off too, airport was really fun that day:D

went out with them again last thurs. we walked here and there but well. quite enjoyed myself. haha. went for frisbee at NP (i think im infiltrating there a bit too much.) and high school musical 3 and quantum with wenyao weisong and vanessa.

hsm3 was great yeah. but its the same storyline =.= they get this song, then they cant sing it tgt, then eventually they can sing it tgt. and gabriella always leaves so suddenly all the time. haha.

but, at least having a same nice storyline is better than quantum, which has NO storyline at all. its one of the worst shows ever :/ and most of everyone agrees with me. haha.

okay. its a bit wordy. to make up for my absence.. i think i dont have enough days to cover my trainings =.=

photo credits to wenyao and gwen. haha.

overdue pictures! from benita's 21st. weeks ago.

kuma's thing!

lunch at swensen's! after taking hours to decide where to eat. the burger was huge.HSM3! the poster was screwed. haha.

2008-10-21T15:45:00.004+08:00

i cant believe my physics and chem got the same marks when i studied so much bloody harder for physics than chem.
i cant believe the amount of careless mistakes i have.
i cant believe i failed my gp compo for the first time in my life.
i cant believe im friggin 3 marks away from a theoretical promotion.

im trying hard to believe God has His plans.

2008-10-08T17:25:00.002+08:00

lihui
:D
joy
i thought candy will wreck your soul. icecream will too! haha.
samantha
im not what. hahah.
marianne
hahaha WELL. my promos just ended:D
nathalie
hello haha no prob!
lihui
haha next time you can go see! dec got two i think. feb got Adivs! all at clementi sports hall:D so near nanhua hahaha.
steph
yes he does. haha tudor voicu. haha.
samantha
haha yep it is.
sacha
hello:DD
shantelle
well after you said that i didnt update for two months. haha!
joan
hello:D
samantha
okay hahaa.
michelle
alright. haha added!
lihui
there! im no longer busy.... for now. :D busy playing hahahaha.

havent been here for ages. the tag replies are 2 months late =.=

promos are over:DDDDD

party like a rock star:D

haha hopefully i promote. then hopefully i improve. wahaha so many things i want to do!

then to get out off this pit.

(:

all random photos.. next time. loads to upload. i think. :D

2008-09-02T13:13:00.003+08:00

our fear of loneliness is not actually fear of being alone but the fear that nobody wants to be with us.

sorry lazy to reply tags haha.

the musical's going to be great (hopefully)
13 sept
6-9pm
glory presbyterian church chapel

i think got free mooncakes or dinner or sth haha but thats not the point. go for the musical!

choir bbq was okay. i think i over ordered the food. haha but oh well.

wall-e was great:D i think the rabbit video before that was cuter actually but it was quite a great show i guess. and nice company also:D havent hung out for ages. haha. the video's below.
go watch must!

its the hols so i better use my time wisely to study for irritating promos okay bye.

2008-08-28T21:37:00.002+08:00

avfc photos uploaded. haha.

school has been pretty retarded these days. both the friends (in a good way) and the lessons (in a not so good way).

hopefully i can buck up. 32 days to promos - trying to get a D average.
im aiming B for math and econs, C for GP, and E for physics and chem.

sounds a bit high.

but i hope i can haha.

pw has been draining recently. quite irritating.

hopefully my sept hols are put into good use.

i wonder if it would?

individuals. ;D

teams! with natsuko and yukari. my coach. haha.

2008-08-17T23:08:00.007+08:00

stalker
haha so good? you can lend me your nametag and maybe i can get discount too:D haha ig30 go there after promos and everyone's exams! :DD haha.
samantha
uhh haha even if i can make icecream im sure it wont be as nice as haato's! hahaha.
shantelle
haha thanks of course nice lah got me inside haha. go next time with all of us okay! ahaha.
joan
hmmm maybe i dont take that often anymore! i used to go school with 106 also mah! not anymore so oh well:/ haha. if fate brings us tgt we'll meet or sth hahaha.
lihui
YES YOU DID hahaha thanks:D i dont know also but i never see you online lehh hahahaha!
sacha
yep:D then i can give you a super belated birthday treat or something(: haha!
michelle
hey(: haha.
lihui
haha stretch more! everyday in the toilet or before you sleep can practice hahahaha.
shantelle
yep updating now! finally hahaha. hope you arent sick anymore! been quite long alrd haha(:
samantha
haha yeah updating now! okay i will next time! hahaha.

okay i havent been posting for ages. sorry. really busy nowadays:/

quite a lot of stuff has happened i guess. haha as in events.

hmm my class went for national youth environment conference! mostly organised by cj. so k7 and i were facils for group EE3:D

was kinda fun. my group was not bad i guess. haha though at the start was extremely weird. cos i didnt know much about energy efficiency - only had the notes they gave us to bank on. but it was really tiring. i tried my best to keep awake but i think i slept throughout the minister's dialogue at the end hahaha.

hopefully EE3 can meet up one day! just made about 20 new friends haha. but too bad about 1/4 of the entire conference didnt turn up. after that rushed down to orchard to meet up with vanessa and weisong! it was really long since we hung out, and wenyao couldnt make it so its been longer since all four of us have been tgt! haha.

didnt manage to catch dark knight cos all the shows were full till the midnight one. so we decided just to have dinner haha. so we ate at some paragon place and i think we were all quite off cos very hungry hahaha. food was not bad, djmax is quite sick i think haha i'll never able to be so fast. then we went toys r us! just walked around and we played with everything hahaha.

yeah but it was pretty fun too. (:

had pesta sukan fencing team championships. our first bout was against blade club hahaha so we just fenced for fun cos the chance of winning was practically 0? there was some smu fencer (smu's pretty sick haha.), henry koh (blade club's coach and previously s'pore's no.1 foil in 2003 i think.) and weiwen (now's no.1 in s'pore epee. according to the latest nat trials haha.)

so we got thrashed like 45-10 hahaha. pretty expected. but the experience was not bad. i mean how often do you get to fence both of them haha.

so i still managed to go back for the last part of 1130 service. haato after that! but i was pretty drained. so just stoned there and ate my icecream. we had taboo! left pretty soon though. went back to supposedly study. joel was there. then i just like. fell asleep till 6plus 7ish.

jasmine came back too! (but she left already haha.) i realised 4/1 mostly goes out when she's back only:P

haha but i really missed catching up with 4/1! i think they're the best class ever! haha though we only play bridge and are super indecisive but its always fun with them hahaha. and we always make a lot of noise haha.

went island (AGAIN) with them, and just kept talking haha. too bad ade left before i came but i see her everyday so oh well. hahaha. okay sometimes i dont our classes are on opposite ends now. haha.

then the night jasmine left we all went to the airport after our school! quite cool haha i've never been to the airport in school uniform haha. had dinner and took loads of pictures (mostly not with me though haha) and just talked. cos we figured that it would really be quite some time before seeing her again now. yeah we figured that 3 times but this time really seemed final cos she's starting school.

oh well. miss her loads:/ haha.

one day we'll fly to england to see her hahaha. when we have enough money and when my parents allow.

then on the national day celebration we had this kuku walk from school to ccab. it was quite retarded and funny though haha. kept talking crap throughout with t15:D they're a great class too i guess(: we were quite high during the mass dance hahaha first time we danced with such enthusiasm! besides orientation haha. i mean our pe lessons it was quite sian hahaha.

went out for lunch and my first nc show in a cinema also:P love guru haha but its a waste of my money lah. its like damn retarded hahaha. and the sm girls behind me were like making weird comments so k7 and i kept looking at each other haha.

but it was quite funny i guess. no link show haha.

had smu's asian varsity fencing competition yesterday and today. i think yesterday during individuals i improved a bit compared to under17s. guoyang got to round of 16, where he got owned by weiwen haha. bjorn got to round of 32 where he got owned by weiwen too haha. i think weiwen has some fate with cj or something hahaha.

but today's team events was quite sian. like we lost smu B 44-45. hahaha quite close and tense lah. haha they caught up to 43-44 then double haha. never mind next time i guess;D went subway with kahseng after that and went home to sleep. many hours to catch up.

thats all i think. quite long hahaha. photos of all the events below:D racial harmony photos uploaded too. haha. (:

vanessa mine and uh. forgot. darius i think hahha. we saw the heart shape puddle on the floor quite cool hahaha.

sending jasmine off! weijie's masterpiece hahaha.

jasmine and ade(:

our last photo! haha okay for some time. not forever last!

then we were taking the super late train home. group photo can you see the four of us in the window! and four of them(:

after the ccab walk. haha me janini wilson and bjorn.

wall e:D joyce and i hahaha.

at island! when we havent met for so long hahaha.

hmm racial harmony!

my colour for this month haha. my blue's fading to green! and my bright green from last month's photo.. i didnt post. haha.

2008-07-21T22:13:00.008+08:00

lihui
haha me too! oh no. one day we should play on viwawa together hahaha.
samantha
i just click then do my other stuffs lor. haha. then slowly got all the photos le.
joan
yes hahaha open your eyes bigger next time! and take more bus there maybe you'll see me more haha.
steph
haha no lah surpressing laughter wasnt that hard. i was too busy trying to rmb my lines. haha.
hanif
yes lets promote tgt okay:D hahaa. aim! B C D E S. haha confirm can promote.
joy
let's take the choochoo shoe to go to the icecream mountain:D haha you can be the icecream queen with the magical amulet haha. haato soon! when you free?
benita
yeah aaron eats the icecream. haha.
stalker
YES. faster go there and work hahaha so i get discount also!

hello hello:D

haha today was racial harmony day. so photos will be up soon(: when i get them from cheryl and gwen! haha.

today was a 5pm day and i ONLY had one lecture - physics, which was quite slack lah. and no tutorials. my goodness. i wasted my time. haha then again i didnt get silver for napfa again means i've to retake AGAIN. i got like A A A B E E.

so im like 2 cm for SBJ and 2 pullups away from a silver. and from two extra months in the army.

):

then again i dont know why i've got a shin splint and it sucks cos ive training tomorrow.

i think i entered level 2 of my braces cos the dentist stretched this rubberband across all my teeth and it felt just like day one all over again. for that 2 days i didnt like braces haha. okay now its fun all over again cos the discomfort's subsiding;D just one tooth that feels quite uncomfortable.

i've my econs and chem tutorial due tomorrow and i havent started and i feel like sleeping omg im so dead.

anyway back to today racial harmony was fun:D some of the models and classes were really cute and i think the skit was quite funny. like haha. the food too;D omg i better run tomorrow. :/

okay okay okay.

econs tutorial.

ig30 photos below! :D

IG30 at fish and co(:

jolyn and me:D

the enormously huge drink.

haha look at debra! she always has THE look on her face like she's very hungry and eyeing people's food! go check back the previous ig dinner at nydc and had the exact same photo with the exact same look! :DD

we dumped all our uneaten fries to bjorn cos we couldnt finish. haha.

okay we took many photos here haha. kept asking other people to keep taking for us!

then we have the 10 shot thingy like neoprint haha.

yep haha. hope kym comes back soon again so we can have ig dinners again!

and jasmine's back(: for a short while, but at least she's back! haha.

2008-07-17T14:43:00.019+08:00

samantha
haha yeah wenyao takes photos of everything! haha.
joy
YAH. ask him hurry up hahaa and bring another camera so he can take again after we all change!
stalker
HELLO;D hahaha. let's go sentosa:D haha.
lihui
HAHA i think i only can add you if i see you online. if not i also dont know how to add. whoops:P hahaha. and thankyou(: hahaa.
steph
haha got no common test one? my results are... below. haha.
joan
yesss that is you! hahaha how i know. you either have the sian look or the blur look haha.
samantha
hello;D haha im updating now what. hahha.
benita
i koped from wenyao too(: hahaha.
lihui
hello:D

physics - S
chem - U
math - U
econs - D
GP - E

haha i wont say im very happy but im not very sad either. but must work harder for promos:D haha.

so many events since the last time i blogged - so there are photos of the 40th anniversary, youth sunday and the week after youth sunday!

the photos of the ig30 outing will be out soon;D haha.

im hungry): and my AQ isnt done. wenyao and crystal just dropped by! which is very random haha i think i look like a wreck. but it was nice catching up with them(:

anyway youth sunday and 40th anniversary photos credited to uncle pengmun and post youth sunday photos credited to wenyao:DD

so anyway youth sunday and post youth sunday was cool: esp the skit and humanoids haha. but i cant act for nuts so dont think i'll be acting for quite some time:D

then again maybe i should stick to the emo look and go church like that every week. haha i felt so sad you know i was walking to the toilet then there was this small kid that saw me then he ran away from me hahaha.

lectures have been sucky - i totally dont understand organic chem and superposition and international trade. so much so that i've to struggle to stay awake cos i dont understand a thing that the lecturers are talking about.

i read and read and read but totally dont understand.

hmm dinner with IG30. i really loved that dinner - it totally took away all my school thoughts and i just felt liberated. it felt like orientation all over again. honestly i STILL feel that i'm in the orientation mood, which is not good cos its end july already and its 11 weeks (74 days exactly) to promos.

i really hope i promote.

but thats not the point - managed to catch up with kym a bit. BUT WHY SHE LEFT SO FAST!

food was okay but i got full after a while and had to force myself to eat. so i dumped my food to bjorn:D haha.

but all of them had fun suanning me lah. hahaha. but i still love ig30:D too bad not all of them could go! it would have been perfect if all of them were there! (:

anyway photos next post. i promise!

okay go look through the photos. im hungry. and i should go do my AQ.

HAATO soon okay all of you.

the programme sheet for the service.

last rehearsal a day before the event.

rev yap the senior pastor! and the orchestra and choir.

voices of glory :D mr poon. haha his voice damn nice:D

most of the orchestra i think.

and the choir:D

okay now's the start of youth sunday. the humanoids. haha.

the worship team for youth sunday.

the dance people:D

and the youths! (:

930 service.

okay now's POST youth sunday! the skit. roy as old egg!

young egg (hanyang) and mom (amayong)

lydia as cheerleader/try hard

tayyi the overachiever. best conduct;D

tengjin the nerd. haha.

aaron the punk. remind me never to do this again.. i'll never get baptised/confirmed. haha.

all of us. jonathan the scriptwriter/producer.

some of the youths.

humanoids PART 2!

daniel chen my emo counterpart:D

so somehow i got roped to be a humanoid too.

humanoids + actors + some coaches:D

2008-07-08T23:02:00.000+08:00

physics - S
chem - U
math - U

no good. ):

i expected physics to be U and chem to be S but oh well. math was sigh. i thought i could get better.

econs better turn out well - i studied hard for it.

GP.... :/

2008-07-03T20:55:00.012+08:00

lihui
haha thanks! im much better now anyway:D just that school really sucked at that time! (:
joy
hello soon to be sky blue CHARLIE. choochoo shoe hahaha.
bjorn
first time seeing you seeing my blog also. hahaha.
samantha
haha okay! i'll tag soon! after i finish blogging(: hahaha.
vanessa
haha really? and when can we all go out! i've missed so many chances already:/ haha hope your papers were fine! (:
joan
hello! haha how come you went offline after i said i dont like marmalade! haha.
xueting
hello haha omg please. one day if he reads this..

im feeling talkative today. so you can skip everything and just look at photos or if you can stick with me....

(photos credited to wenyao! @ livingtestimony.smugmug.com i think if he charged ten cents for every picture i kope he'll be rich enough to buy more lenses now. thanks wenyao for the beautiful pictures anyway(: )

i got back physics and chem. S and U respectively. im really quite happy for my physics considering i didnt really study for it and the results across the level arent very good. like only one low A and the rest of the highest marks are Bs and Cs. and its the highest i've ever gotten for jc physics.

but chem, on the other hand.. well i wont say i studied hard for it but i studied more for it!

oh well. never mind. math was a stupid killer paper which i lost 60 marks when i stepped out of the exam hall. i THOUGHT econs was fine until joan started saying most of us didnt do well. i never thought gp was fine.

today's youth sunday! im very happy with the special items, minus the few hiccups here and there, i think we all did very well(: photos of special item up another time! and the humanoids statue advertisement thingy:D i took photos too! haha with the EMO KID hahaha. i think all of them looked very cool(:

after that went to play pool and slept. and went for movie with my parents! haha it was quite a retarded movie. :D

i'll miss playing the special item! oh well. NEXT YOUTH SUNDAY:D

oh yes it was the church's 40th anniversary a few weeks ago! the anthems were really nice i think. together with the orchestra(: and hongjie was in the orchestra! like the youngest kid there. i think he's damn cute too haha.

so i really really enjoyed it. even the speaker was good too. weisong's uncle! haha. the dinner was so so but i went out occassionally to talk to darius and joy and joan and the rest. in between the mega long wait for the next dish haha.

then we went haato after that! i had my double scoop and we played singapore taboo. haha. was very funnnn but i didnt take pictures haha. then uncle chengkim sent us back:D

i went for nic's 21st birthday party a few weeks ago, and it was great! esp the food and the company. hahaha. loads of photos from wenyao:D

gpc yf! :D or at least, the people who went. haha.

i managed to dig out this super old photo from super long ago! last time's sentosa(:

the food was damn nice. and there was a lot okay.

GREEN BRACES haha:D

tarzan and another green braces friend(:

tayyong's damn cute. haha.

the cream was mega lot and his face was like... creamed. haha. ignore my spastic face.

the chopsticks and forks were arranged really nicely. haha.

thats it! happy birthday nic:D

oh oh this was our youth sunday rehearsal a few weeks ago!

haha look at joan she has this mega ): face while singing and joy's giving her a cheekopei look. haha.

i forgot to take my orange last month. but its okay:D

photos of 40th anniversary and youth sunday and humanoids up another day(:

2008-06-28T02:55:00.002+08:00

samantha
haha no lah:P not her actual boyfriend. haha!
lihui
hmm exams mah. can make you drop all your hair one. haha. :/

my midyears are totally gone.

as in. yes pun intended.

i think the highest i can aim for now is a what, B E S U U.

:/

changing my colour to green made me happier though. haha.

now to enjoy my few days of freedom before i get back my results and wallow in selfpity.

i waved to you in my dream,
but all i saw was a cold stare.

2008-06-24T23:09:00.003+08:00

i was going through it.
so what happened?

i realised it too - everything's temporal.

if you're actually reading this, did you even notice?

chem today was):

math tomorrow's going to be )):

physics is going to be )))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))):

if my heart has grown cold
there Your love will unfold
as You open my eyes to the work of Your hand
when I’m blind to my way
there Your Spirit will pray
as You open my eyes to the work of Your hand

oceans will part, nations come
at the whisper of Your call
hope will rise, glory shown
in my life Your will be done

present suffering may pass
Lord Your mercy will last
as You open my eyes to the work of Your hand
and my heart will find praise
i’ll delight in Your way
as You open my eyes to the work of Your hand

2008-06-24T00:07:00.001+08:00

midyears = in 12 hours = byebye soon = all U = no not all you.

please i hope i dont get lower than an average D or E.

and i want my econs A/B.

i dont want a U for anything other than physics.

please:DD

2008-06-21T22:24:00.002+08:00

joy
yes yes choir is GOOOOOD:D
joan
haha hello short shoutbox person(:
samantha
haha yes yes we're choosing green next! my appointments next friday!
benita
yep it was fun! oh well at least we all went sentosa!
shantelle
hello:D haha alright linked!
joan
HELLO OUTSIDE IM AARON NICE TO MEET YOU:D haha. I KNOW WHO'S JOAN'S BOYFRIEND wahaha.
jasmine
hello! :D haha.

hmm went for cadet comp. not very good. :/ oh well. but only our national fencers won medals. haha. never mind i'll kick them up down left right the next time i see them. :D

time to start studying! wahaha. two days to midyears. SO MUCH TIME TO STUDY FOR H2s!

im so certain i can do so well.

i'll be very happy with a D average. but i want my A/B for econs. the rest uhhh. lets just aim to pass. haha.

NO PICTURES FOR YOU TODAY wahaha.

mediocre - i wonder how it would have turned out otherwise.

2008-06-11T02:26:00.021+08:00

samantha
haha really? got so coincidental;D guess what colour im getting next month then! hahaha.
lihui
haha my exams again! i think im totally going to flunk them. i guess infocomm camp was quite fun(:
steph
haha i think after the blanks here and there its about 12 pages lah. but my handwriting was big and scribbly so i dont know. its the quality:P S for stephanie? haha.
dom
haha yeah there are a lot!
steph
haha lazy what! i dont really tag others anyway too. hahahaha.
tanya
hmmmm but weird timings are very fun:D hahha. oh man i miss all the meetings! and yeah i go jiang:D hahaha. used to! from like. p3 till sec4.
joy
hello:D haha we'll get our green braces soon! whooooo:DD then we must choose colour again! haha.
vanessa
yeah i guess all of us havent catched up for such a long time already! (: hope all of us can go out after our exams! :D
steph
yes you can, hahaha.
samantha
i just tagged! haha!
joy
haha yes yes first person! see it was fun right(:
lihui
haha hello:DD i think i should visit you guys soon after my exams! haha.
renu
haha i totally neglect and dont touch my links:D will relink! which school are you in now btw?
joy
how can you! you were filled with energy when i called you in the afternoon last time. while i was dying. oh no. i think im getting old:/
priscilla
relinked(: hahaha.
samantha
hello then:DD haha.
sacha
im updating now! YES we should go out! after my midyears! must(:
tayyi
yes i saw. BANKAI benzene ring. hahaha. you should go make onion ring one.
joan
hello:D SENTOSA:DD haha long so i dont need to keep scrolling and scrolling and scrolling and it looks unique(: haha.
joy
HELLO JOYOUS JOY AMAZING AARON IS UPDATING NOW:D
UP(17 JUNE) hahaha.
samantha
sounds so cool:D haha!

okay. i know i've been neglecting this place for close to a month.

BUT I HAVE MILLIONS OF PHOTOS TO MAKE UP FOR IT:D

all photos credited to wenyao @ livingtestimony.zenfolio.com, his many MANY thousand dollars worth of equipment,

and whoever took them. and my n82 camera:D

so forgive the long post.

so well let me try to think back in time..

i managed to go for dance concert. really missed all of them, though couldnt catch up with K7. yeah the concert was not bad. cj's first dance concert! but i really really reeeaallly liked their last time's syf dance. or so i think it is. the red coloured one.

but everything was okay i guess(:

managed to see rebecca and stephanie:D

they went out to town after that but i had church the next day so i decided not to go.

i went for infocomm camp before lockin nite. though i only managed to stay for a while, i managed to catch up a bit with yangping and sacha so im quite satisfied and quite enjoyed myself(:

but hope they'll all be more enthusiastic next time! haha.

then after i went home, i chionged for lockin nite. though it took many many late nights to prepare, i think it was really really fun. and i really enjoyed the first night's dom's worship too. and all the games! later all the photos will explain:D

but i really miss all my new friends:D okay fine its not new. but a newfound relationship, haha.

i skipped training on one day though. too tired to go. never mind! the KAP breakfasts made up for it too. haha. and we went deborah's house to watch win a date with ted hamilton and the swan princess! haha her mom's damn funny. keep asking us to watch documentaries cos the movies had all the uhhh. disgusting scenes.

but was quite scary lah. cos scared her mom got pissed. but well the company was fun! tanya jean jiahui dom jonathan deborah hanyang wilson jacob/joseph? (i forgot) and uh. should be all. and jiahui brought her nice jap food from waraku. haha.

so oh well. after lockin nite my hols felt quite empty and weird. okay maybe not. all the trainings, star2s, studies made it happy again. haha.

and yf went sentosa:D i really miss the past where we'll keep going and going and going cos its really fun! though a lot of fun people couldnt join us, had some new faces. which i guess its quite good:D im still waiting for pictures from our wonderful photographer. haha sorry i keep koping:P

but i didnt get my tan:/ oh well. but it was really fun! though i was sick then.

choir pracs have been fun too. and the mr poon guy has this sick voice and range. haha.

then again. im looking forward to youth sunday! :D

honestly i dont want school to start. yes i do miss every single one of them but school = exams and i really am tired of the whole lecture and tutorial repetition. and i havent had enough fun in the hols yet):

oh well. competition this thurs:D i think i'll get owned. haha.

photos below!(:

dance concert! didnt manage to take with the rest of them though:/

yangping! haha where's sacha:\ haha.
one of the last few lockin nite meetings!
celebrating choir's birthday babies in the past few months. which is only tayye. haha.
log preparation for lockin nite:D
games preparation! tanya was making the dough! but the first night people didnt get to play captain's dough;P which is a wasteeeee.
jean making the goo! with a spastic brush broom thing.

final setup of the pool station!
jon's the master at it. hahah.
the jet's magically floating wahaha. the spray was fun;D but i like accidentally sprayed myself many many times. haha.
the curtains! first night didnt have time to make so many. but second night we made a LOT A LOT. spent a lot of time putting it up. haha.
final meeting in the canteen!
terence's skit's final preparations.
final prayer before the whole event!
we were teaching them the kuku cheer thing i think. BUT ITS SUPER NICE.
ahhh cheekopei face. haha.
first night people:D
and second night people:D
ps wesley's lighting of the tiki torch.

the briefing.
young men and women, you face tough challenges ahead:D
OUR POOL STATION:D its the most fun confirm! we've got tarzan (tanya) jane (uh me haha) and GORILLA (stanley) so we could play the game perfectly;D
this is damn funny cos tanya has weird red eyes and stanley looks like he's peeing! :DD

the demonstration of the tarzan jane gorilla game!
and then we made them pull up their shorts for our viewing pleasure. hahaha.

and splash them a lot!

then we had the flourballoon station! i forgot whats the name in the actual game.
held in the toilets! but nic looks like another cheekopei. hahaha.
and then we had the goo game! VISCOSITY IS PRIORITY:D

and then the stocking game! stock siloso. haha. :D
nic looks damn funny! i dont know why. hah.
so they were made to do forfeits by the windmelites (actually its only jean i think. haha.)
so this was the 2nd night! i think this was the skit part. "we are very good friends!"
this is a priceless photo. haha.
the chipmunks. emo hoodies. haha.
we played the tangle game with them which we could never solve..
see the many curtains on the 2nd night! so many more! haha.

and then we werent lucid after the 2nd night and i found this staircase which said hi to me.

this was at deborah's house after we were watching movie! i dont know why its in my phone though. haha.

during debrief! we had our icecream:D haha. i want to go for nicer icecream! wahaha.

thats it i guess. next time i'll blog the sentosa pictures! :D

your smile warms my heart.

2008-05-22T22:29:00.001+08:00

okay i know i know econs. but i just saw this cool video! on someone's blog;D haha go watch! its about this musical that's created out of nowhere. i think its damn cool if im eating subway then i get to see such cool stuff:D

2008-05-22T19:23:00.003+08:00

lihui
yep yay;D but now exams): haha actually it started today and its ending tomorrow. BUT it continues after my hols:/ i'll be trying to go for the infocomm camp! haha.
jenna
haha alright! linked(:
joy
no orange or noooo, i should take orange? hahaha.
beni
haha yes then wont grow fat and die!;D
joy
haha okay linked! now my blog's full of joy, haha. J-O-Y i've got joy in my blog! deep deep down in my blog! haha.

econs econs. i've studied for so long but i'm just not confident):

and gp today was :/ esp compre.

sigh wont dwell on it. going to study econs econs econs!

you know i think growing up's no good. as in, there's no substantial benefit (no PMB, no EMB and no SMB) like, all tv shows start off happy cos everyone's young, then when everyone grows up everything starts getting complicated and everyone becomes unhappy. which will lead to cost! (PMC, EMC and SMC)

so to reduce these negative externalities, i can use taxes, regulation, moral suasion and international cooperation with countries.

i cannot use bans as im not certain that SMC>SMB for all outputs of the good, and i dont think i can use marketable pollution permits since growing up's not a pollution.

sorry.

its the econs. :D

not many photos. but nat was cutting hair. haha. and we had log meeting. i have concluded that studying makes you grow fat and die. and island creamery's apple pie icecream is yum:D

2008-05-20T20:55:00.003+08:00

ignorance is bliss;
who will you choose to sacrifice?

i miss t16, ig30, 4/1, infocomm, and yf last time. ):

everything in the past - nothing in the present.

sigh. im beginning to see a pattern here - i'll miss everything once every two months or something, haha.

2008-05-18T21:53:00.003+08:00

samantha
haha okay i'll relink:D
lihui
still pink! hahaha. im going to change to green and orange at the last week of this month!(:
priscilla
haha alright! relinked(:
lihui
really? wasnt really feeling too happy but now im fine already:D haha it rhymes! :DDD
steph
haha i dont know? maybe i accidentally changed the font, haha.
amelia
yep havent seen you for a long time! relinked too;D
sacha
thanks:DD your tests during june too right!
k7
hello:DDDDD hahaha.

today was tiring. but fun.

we sounded better than the practice, and i guess it was quite nice(:

didnt manage to study today. slept throughout after choir prac. saw samantha after i left church with kahseng:DD haha. and my parents on 77!

my past few days have been very rushed. so finally i get to sit down and take a break to do nothing. its been like running and cabbing everywhere.

like friday after training rushed down to church, then rushed out of yf for service prac then rushed out of service prac for lockin nite meeting then rushed to market to eat dinner. which was like at 1130 or 1140pm or something.

then next morning rushed to kap (cos our good friend came late:P) then cabbed to nh then aiyah. star2 was kukuly messy this week. after kfc (omg. unhealthy meal): ) then rushed to church, rushed off to bugis to meet the jiang people.

was quite fun though;D we managed to talk a lot! haha luckily laoshi no class that day. jacqueline yingjie theodore and me!

kerong came later. then jacq and yingjie left. so we went vivo to play bridge with jihao and jx. ate damn lot again. sigh.

NO GOOD.

will grow fat and die.

sorry for talking so much. just had to express how busy my week was:DD

photos from wenyao's blog. his bday party - which was eons ago. haha. but still, reminds me of the still not so busy and more fun days of the year(:

and during lockin nite meeting! all wearing same colour (not intended, haha.)

psalm 8.
3 When I consider your heavens,
the work of your fingers,
the moon and the stars,
which you have set in place,
4 what is man that you are mindful of him,
the son of man that you care for him?

im pretty sure thats how she felt last time.

2008-05-15T21:43:00.001+08:00

sometimes i wonder,
is it taken for granted, or...?

and the sun will set for you,
the shadow of the day,
will embrace the world in grey.

2008-05-11T23:23:00.003+08:00

samantha
haha my mood swings that obvious meh:P haha. okay never mind. i'll sleep more! haha. i spelt your name wrongly somewhere? where?
lihui
yep! haha. thats why i try to sleep at 10 or 11pm nowadays! well. sometimes i fail, haha. and im seeing the dentist tomorrow!
sacha
haha yep! lets go out after my midyears and your cts alright(: hahaha. we havent gone out for so long! like, somewhere other than nh! haha.
hahahahahahahahanif
YEP! june hols alright! i saw joanne the other day. omg. i miss her like crap. sigh. t16:DD
tayyi
haha okay! umm. when im not feeling so lazy. tomorrow!(:
steph
really? haha class jersey. :D i want class tshirt leh. jerseys getting a bit too common, haha.

i've got a few photos but im really extremely lazy to upload them. so this shall be my first photoless post in quite a long while.

my weekends and weekdays (which means everyday) are starting to get a little hectic, so busy that i dont really have time to breathe. which is good. meaning that i dont waste much time, but its also bad cos i have two math tutorials and one math FA due at 8am tomorrow and here i am typing.

pastor andrew from the andrew and grace home was our speaker today, (but the speakers killed it all) and it was really good. i've been there before (during get lost, not as a delinquent. haha.) but his sharing really like impacted me. something so close to our hearts, and something that reminds me how blessed i am.

kelvin soh shared during parents day dinner too. and though it was my 2nd time hearing his sharing, it well. just touched me again. of how God can change the lives of anyone and everyone. and his voice is mega nice.

so basically i had a very VERY busy and packed sunday but it was very fulfilling. and i think God really works wonders. everything just falls into place nicely. i dont know how, i dont know why, but it does.

managed to finish my econs essay too:D

though my mom probably may never read this,
happy mothers' day:D

thank you for doing so much for me. for being so dedicated to your job (which is taking care of me 24/7), for putting up with all my tantrums and for providing for my every single need and most of my wants.

i managed to chance upon this video when i went facebook (first time in ages.)

change my heart O God,
make it ever new.
change my heart O God,
may i be like You.

2008-05-06T19:56:00.003+08:00

samantha
haha no prob:D
lihui
yep! haha. oh well. lucky you guys who have no midyears! your last year to enjoy :D
yilin
yeah lor yeah lor! like in orchard and jurong all also have! you stalking me right! hahaha. i think the dustbin no rubbish. but still quite disgusting! haha.
cindy
yeah i remember! haha. i never knew your sister was from nh also right? haha. like i used to see her when i go to school but i didnt know you two were sisters!

sigh. today's chem test should be U liao. hahaha.

so my CA's like BSSU. dont know econs yet.

and my braces wire's sticking out and its pain like a chicken:/ but no time to go visit my dentist to cut it off! zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz. so its extremely irritating. and painful.

oh well. t15 won best class during sports carnival:D i think our senior class + us = quite ownage:DD

it was extremely hot, and i was taking my nap during prize presentation when suddenly all around me were like ehh ehh best class leh best class leh. faster stand up!

haha so i groggily stood up and all.

the whole sports carnival was quite fun though. and the trophy's bloody big (we had to return it like damn soon.)

i think we won quite a lot of stuff, soccer netball ecothingy frisbee track and field events.

and and something damn funny happened. cos like during parents appreciation night, qiheng and my dad SOMEHOW swopped their credit cards. and they all didnt realise until yesterday (thats like, about 2-3weeks)

thats not the worst part - my dad bought a new fridge, vacuum cleaner, all the dinners and movies and etc! cos my house suddenly a lot of stuff spoilt.

and my dad still didnt find out! so its quite kuku.

oh well. i was laughing like everything.

and i think im starting to get quite bad mood swings due to lack of sleep. cos i get cranky when 1. i dont get enough sleep or 2. i dont get what i want or 3. when im sick. haha whoops. like i get quite irritated easily nowadays. which is BAD. oh well. i better sleep more;D

photos from belinda and hanif!

combined class of t15:DD
and brother paul, haha.

2008-05-01T22:19:00.004+08:00

lihui
yep! at least its not gayly pink but a nice pink! hahaha. havent seen you for so long):
kahseng
hello i also okay ;P hahaha. at least you're not boring! if not i'll grow bored and die :D
zhiyi
haha replied you on your blog! its with gwen now! jiayou for your midyears alright!(:
yuchen
thanks! will link you when i have the time, hahaha.
joy
HELLO:D haha. yes yes get pink braces so all of us can take a nice pinky photo! :DD
samantha
haha nowadays too many things happen for me to blog about all of them! yep. so long as you remember in the end, haha.
hanif
haha but its true what ;P my friend saw another one before: friendship is like wetting your pants, everyone can see it, but only you can feel its true warmth. but the shit one's created by me! haha.

PHOTOS BELOW! its going to be a very long post, haha. i dont know why. feel like talking today:D

had a busy weekend;D

woke up early on sat for breakfast at kap with josie liwen kahseng. went to nh for star2 after that, seeing a nh couple on the way;P haha.

i guess my star2 group's quite nice! at least i dont feel uncomfortable with them! yep. (:

went to dom's house to cook some pork rib rice thingy with my group people for parents appreciation night!

then cabbed to church with them, and realised that there were only my parents. at least there were other youths. felt quite weird esp when i was leading worship ;P haha. oh well. large decline in number esp since last time it was able to fill a chapel!

guess its cos its the uni and sec school students' exams now!

then went to bjorn's house for bjorn and wilson's bday party. omg lah. i got stuck on the kuku PIE for 2 hours! thats not the worst part - i only reached lornie road from bukit timah after 2 hours! which would take me normally about 10-15 mins on a normal school day):

never mind. but my physics just didnt get in during that 2 hours:/ went to bjorn's house anyway, watched soccer, ate, played mosquito (had loads of fun laughing with glenn gwen michael and angie:D), ate nice cake and icecream, then went home.

woke up even earlier the next day for 730 with wenyao. and concluded that 730's a BIT too early for me to absorb most stuff during the sermon. left straight after 1130 choir's anthem, went to changi exhibition centre to watch formula drift with wenyao ben and gavin.

cabbed there after lunch just in time for the first race (although we missed some showcase drifts:/) and watched all the races. walked around a little bit and all. it was friggin sunny. i got quite burnt after that, haha.

not many major incidents, just that one car spun out in both races, one car's side skirts fell loose, one car's axles got damaged. so the other guy won the 3rd place in the end. and the thing is, the 3rd place guy was the one that knocked into him. hahahaha.

after a while it got a BIT boring cos all the drifts were the same. and i still felt the first few tandems we saw were the best. oh well. but it was a nice experience! initial d in real life:D

quite worth the money for the experience and the company, though it should be formula U with the millions of umbrellas there:/

went back to church to study and help samantha a bit.

weds! went to fm for the first time, and the aircon was great;D haha. a bit ulu to get there though! had training and didnt sweat a single drop cos it was aircon-ned! haha. okay partly also cos it was only bladework and no pt that day.

HOWEVER, our nice kahseng poked me in the eye with the plastic sword during training:P haha. luckily he wasnt using a real epee or i'd have been blind now. i got a shock (and he got a bigger shock XP) and nothing much. but my contact lens on my left eye broke! and i didnt even know until after the match with him.

cabbed back home to get my specs with rena and kahseng, and kahseng crapped a LOT with the cab driver on the way, haha. i slept most of the journey while they started talking about almost everything under the sun, starting from all the wuxia shows and their moves then rena and i were like wth! haha.

went to kap after that to help gwen jingru and xinglin with chem and math with melinda, and attempted to read a bit of my chem and math too. haha. i got a free icecream from jingru :D haha so funny lah. she thought melinda and i were angry cos she was late and so melinda and i asked for an apple pie and icecream and she really bought for us!

next time i should ask for a meal:D haha.

oh well. was quite fun at kap. met gabriel, kengyang, and some ex4/2 guy. forgot his name. saw casuarine with another 4/2 guy on the bus there but they didnt see me.

okay. im sorry for the humongously long post - congrats to you if you've read till here, haha.

photos below! credits to wenyao and gwen for all of them(: sorry i didnt ask before koping!

michael! haha we tied his hair up;D looks so cute. haha.

sai was playing catching with guoyang and he attempted to hide in the dustbin! haha. i dont know why. cos uhh. maybe the uniform blends with the dustbin? (90% of stuff is blue in cj btw, even the girls toilet. haha.)

formula d! ticket + lanyard:D

the only car that caught my eye that day, besides the cars in the comps! haha.

i loved his red tyres:D not street legal though. but the red smoke was REALLY beautiful(:

tandem drifts,

and more tandem drifts.

the food at bjorn's house! they prepared it, i... ate:D

i think this was the penalty near the end! even the mahjong people stopped to look, haha.

happy bday to bjorn and wilson:D

nice cake! i like:D

all of us!

this is such a gay photo, omg. hahaha.

gwen michael and glenn and i playing mosquito at the background! k7 emoing after manutd lost, and nat was... being nat. haha :DD

thats all. :D

2008-04-19T23:53:00.003+08:00

lihui
haha yep! its damn cool. but now my friend says its fake): haha but it was a nice laugh:D
isabell
jc IS fun but its also much much tougher than secondary school! and i quite miss nh. haha.
sacha
haha i didnt take the photos! my friend did :D but oh well. dinner dinner! next thurs!(:
benita
oh well means the guy doing it must have been really bored and have nothing to do! hahaha. i wonder who's face he used - his own? haha.
ces
its fun alright! haha. and you're in HOCKEY!:D
samatha
its extremely long so i can see more tags! haha. and i've linked you too! (:
tanya
hello tarzan! haha i've linked you toooo and three and four!
isabell
hmm well but you surely will miss nh after you graduate leh! well at least i do! haha.
lihui
thurs are mostly always very fun! :D yay. haha. cos of infocomm! but nowadays i cant go back so not as fun anymore for me! haha.
yilin
haha yeah yeah! its very cool :DD and i havent seen you for so long already): hahaha.
lihui
yep! haha. but i think the pink not bright enough lehhhhh. i want all the bright colours! haha.

school's been uhhh. slightly more comprehensible.

but its getting a BIT routinish - i wake up at the exact same time, take the exact same time to bathe, leave the house at the same time, take the same bus down, see the same people on the way (whether their from my school or not)

oh weellll. training has been fun though. and. accomplishmenty-like after you finish pt with khai. haha.

pardon the english.

i got 1/7 for my GP AQ:/

die. haha.

went back for star2 today (just last year i was sitting down there too! haha.) and well. i guess my group's quite alright. seems like potential fun people to me, haha. and i better go read up on my chem first.

who wants to go for h2 phy and chem tuition with me!

so we were doing physics spa on bridges, tension blah blah etc.

and omg omg omg. hahaha i still dont know who wrote it!

and this month:D

gwen and i were bored during chem spa so we played with the remaining chemicals! haha. looks like magic:DD

but i'm a LITTLE bit sick of titration already.

amidst the throngs of people
i was unseen but yet there.
a cold stare and an unwilling smile,
but the liveliness was nowhere.
i'm sure she locked eyes with me,
but it just didnt feel the same anymore.
the wonders time can do,
the amount it can change,
is far beyond what mere feelings can sustain.

"true friends are like shit: they come out when you feel pain." - aaron chan, during GP.

2008-04-03T22:36:00.022+08:00

lihui
haha hmmm. my next dental appointment is soon! then i can choose between orange or green or red or baby pink or hot pink! haha.
vanessa
haha. oh well. perhaps june we can have an 1130 choir chalet or something then we can play :DD haha.
isabell
haha nope i didnt say its natural! they sort of knew but in jc its like more slack lah. but i cut my hair short after a while instead of dying it black again! haha so now my hair is mostly black(:
k7
haha thanks! now all of us got into the ccas we wanted:D
hanif
hello! haha omg i miss you too. t15 feels weird without you, joanne and jolene (and catch this: yeujinq) hahaha. and no hamzah to make fun of already.
xinyun
HELLO! omg i havent seen you for so long): haha.
sacha
yes i do! haha i just put them! when you were away;D
andrea
thanks! haha. yep cj's fun! hmm vic's my close junior's best friend thats why i got to know her! haha. you know her also arh? seems like everyone knows her, hahaha.
lihui
now im blogging! haha. lihua! omg thats like rivervalley in chinese. haha. mass convos are fun :D yay haha.
nathalie
there i told you you would get in! haha. worried for nothing(:
megan
HELLO haha. wah. so you're hungry and not megan? haha. my blog's the same colour as your braces!
lihui
hello its UPDATED! wahahaha.

cj fencing went for adivs at clementi sports hall and won 28trophies/medals or something like that :D haha.

which is pretty cool. the seniors made the cj flame using the trophies! haha. we won gold for male epee sabre and foil! now how cool is that. but it just makes next year's target harder for us :/ haha.

im pretty busy everyday - and i dont even go out as often anymore):

and im so tired at home that i dont even study at home! now i only study in school and on sundays:/

and my new timetable totally sucks. i thought the last one was bad, then came along this one:dismissal times are like 4pm, 5pm, 530pm, 5pm, 530pm for odd weeks and 4pm 5pm 530pm 3pm 530pm for even weeks.

sigh. its one of the worst timetables in school - all my other friends get released at about 3pm averagely! haha.

oh well. its okay. there are people worse off cos they take h2econs and chinese.

but on the brighter side, at least my time is spent pretty wisely! haha.

many photos once again (no idea how come i take so many in jc, hahaha.)
photo credits to nicholas and wenyao.

now this is the only photo i have of ig27 :/ so do send me if you have others alright?

after easter convention we went to uhhh. mental block. whats that cafe called?
i forgot. anyway. then we talked and talked and had a light snack and... what they call test-tubies. haha.

because they look like mega testtubes.

then we went back to church! this year was quite different cos we went out for lunch and fishandco at the glass house last year after easter convention ;D

combined choir during easter sunday! and pr loli ;D the youths not in choir robes are those from 1130 choir! wahaha.

then ig29.5 went out on monday for a last dinner at nydc before kym left:/

debra's EYEING celine's food! then celine looks so sian! haha.

then we went downstairs, and saw this thing. funny that i've been to wheellock millions of times but i never noticed it was so nice. haha.

we got jolyn's bf to take photos for us:D (we got chased out shortly after this photo, haha.)

so we went outside to continue taking! haha.

btw i saw this off the net. someone told me about him before but i sort of forgot about it. haha.

officer: what's your name?
"batman, sir."

officer: sorry, would you like to repeat that again?
"sir, my name is batman."

officer: are you trying to be funny? whats your surname?
"my name is really batman, sir! my surname's suparman."

officer: will guard duty for the next few weeks stop you from trying to be funny?
"but sir..."

Imagine this guy in the workplace:

“Mr. Suparman, sir?”

“Please…call me Batman.”

2008-03-20T22:09:00.008+08:00

nathalie haha thanks! you look awesome all the time ;D hahahaha.
steph yeah i had to cut my hair. kena caught for too long, haha. next week i end at 5/6pm on monday tues weds and friday! only thurs at 3pm:/ haha.
chiuping how could i forget you? haha. yeah braces rock ;D though its a bit uncomfortable but slowly im getting used to it i guessed.

WHOO I GOT INTO THE FENCING TEAM :D

sorry im pretty happy. today's quite a happy day. joyce got into hockey, k7 got into first 25 for soccer and bjorn megan kahseng and i got into fencing! so im pretty happy. thank God:D

its good friday tomorrow. i saw this passage, and its like a sermon in itself.

romans 3:10-12
as it is written: "there is no one righteous, not even one;
there is no one who understands, no one who seeks God.
all have turned away, they have together become worthless;
there is no one who does good, not even one."

romans 3:22-24
this righteousness from God comes through faith
in Jesus Christ to all who believe. there is no difference,
for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God,
and are justified freely by his grace
through the redemption that came by Christ Jesus.

romans 5:8
but God demonstrates his own love for us in this:
while we were still sinners, Christ died for us.

john 3:16
for God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.

i read this -
Christianity isnt a religion; its a relationship.
Christianity isnt a Sunday thing; its an everyday thing.

King of my life, I crown Thee now,
Thine shall the glory be;
Lest I forget Thy thorn crowned brow,
Lead me to Calvary.

Lest I forget Gethsemane,
Lest I forget Thine agony;
Lest I forget Thy love for me,
Lead me to Calvary.

Show me the tomb where Thou wast laid,
Tenderly mourned and wept;
Angels in robes of light arrayed
Guarded Thee whilst Thou slept.

May I be willing, Lord, to bear
Daily my cross for Thee;
Even Thy cup of grief to share,
Thou hast borne all for me.

maybe sometimes i think this song is over sung. but still each time it strikes me, that possibly what could be worse than the physical pain and torturing was that God turned His face away from His Son, and probably He felt real loneliness then.

How deep the Father's love for us,
How vast beyond all measure
That He should give His only Son
To make a wretch His treasure.

How great the pain of searing loss,
The Father turns His face away
As wounds which mar the chosen One,
Bring many sons to glory.

Behold the Man upon a cross,
My sin upon His shoulders
Ashamed I hear my mocking voice,
Call out among the scoffers.

It was my sin that held Him there
Until it was accomplished
His dying breath has brought me life
I know that it is finished.

I will not boast in anything
No gifts, no power, no wisdom
But I will boast in Jesus Christ
His death and resurrection.

Why should I gain from His reward?
I cannot give an answer
But this I know with all my heart
His wounds have paid my ransom.

the one thing i remember clearly from my israel trip last year (besides all the cheem greek/hebrew stuff and history that was pretty hard to remember), was this:

matthew 27:50-51
and when Jesus had cried out again in a loud voice, he gave up his spirit.
at that moment the curtain of the temple was torn in two from top to bottom.

that passage always seemed so insignificant to me. but when i was in israel, the lady in charge of the tabernacle replica asked this: why couldnt God just remove the curtain or just simply lift it up?

this was cos the tearing of one's garments signifies grieving/mourning in Jewish customs, so in a way God was grieving for Jesus' death. dont ask me why, but it just struck me hard.

sorry to have taken up so much of your time. haha. but well. just felt like sharing it :D and anyway! its quite some time since i've blogged three days in a row!

and more photos!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZHIYI! she's like the same age as me now ;P haha.

vic and i met to make zhiyi's present! haha.

and i went clem to meet them! happy bday again my dear junior :D

and these are photos of t15 last time! overdue for a long time i know, haha.

vanessa always looks freaky with her hair like this :/ haha.

we played ummzizix2! (haha to vanessa CHUNG)

2008-03-19T21:03:00.005+08:00

lihui haha yep yep! i want orange first! then after that then pink, red or green! :DD hahaha. must go watch the leap years if you're free! its one of the best singapore movies :D haha.
nat im not but SOMEONE is, haha.

more photos! haha.

there are some overdue ones (from orientation) i'll post them another time! haha.

we went prata house after science camp (the food was so much better at prata house than cj's lunch! haha sorry. cos provided food is usually :/ haha.)

i tried to satisfy my sugar cravings.
before step up2! before we bought our subway cookies too!

i went island creamery to meet jasmine and i saw a lot of photos of our church people!

and i saw chermaine! and loads of cj people too. haha.
there were many more, but they all left): haha.

2008-03-15T00:01:00.012+08:00

sacha hello! i hope we can meet up again soon :DD haha. yay. we can go for icecream! wahaha.

lihui its not emo! its from the leap years! haha did you watch! the leap years was quite touching.

joyce HELLO JOYCE ;D i just saw you a few hours ago, haha.

lihui hellooooooooooooooooooooooo back! sorry i havent been replying comments/tagging you!

jolene HAHA uh. which jolene are you! jolene sng or the cj jolene! haha.

steph haha i not ahbeng lah. why ahbeng?

nathalie hello my subway cookie sit beside me partner ;D

eisabess haha what, you think that im ahbeng also? haha. well. it just so happened that i've a camera, i like to smile, i've an 8GB memory card, and so i happen to take a lot more pictures(:

lihui haha okay now im updating! yay.

wesley hey ;DD

wenyao HAHA oh well ;P ps wesley's dslr is always around ;P

bel are you belinda or annabel? haha hi anyway ;DD

jingyi okay! haha.

i know this post is grossly overdue. but hey. busy what ;P i just got my timetable, and it SUCKS.

big time.

okay i must say im quite lucky compared to others in my class cos i have an average of 12 breaks a week! cos i dont take chinese and h2 econs. but still. its very very stupidly organised.
like even monday's i have 6 hours of tutorials and only one lecture! and odd tuesdays its all lectures.

and odd thurs i have four hours of break. but i end at 5 :/ they could have just like compressed it.
so i probably only can go back for infocomm at most once every two weeks. think i wont go for trainings on tues. a bit too much to cope i guess.

hmm what else what else? my class appeal got through so most of the people in T15 were from T16. we're quite a fun bunch ;D

well. im in fencing trials now. hope i get through. weds i'll know, haha. cos it'll be quite sian if i cant. dont know where to go ;P either fsv or bridge club! haha.

my hair is the shortest in MANY MANY months cos i kena caught by three teachers today. and i didnt want to dye my hair again so aiyah. just cut shorter lor. so its really very short, haha.

i was late today by ten seconds, can you believe it.

hmm. oh oh. and step up two's quite cool! saw the advertisements at coffee bean after fencing camp and i was quite tempted to go, haha. fencing camp was pretty fun. though no stay over. but well. yeah i had fun :D

well. many many pictures!

doesnt yangxuan look like jay in the mag? haha. he just needs a hoodie :D

went out with t15 for STEP UP TWO!

was studying with kahseng and joy a few weeks back.

wenyao's bday party! okay just kidding. that was a root beer float ;P
cab ride from sembawang to east coast (cost 50 bucks la what the. luckily i didnt pay ;P) so we were bored and had a 5MP camera phone so..

that was the watch we got for him for his bday! :D

sorry. just had to take a picture with the new army boy ;D

joanne left! haha. t15 feels weird without her and jolene lah.
we were at mac and i got a balloon from the staff ;D so we started playing, haha.

this was during orientation! edmund's toe and mine were both hurt, haha. that's my first month ;D i think i shall take one after every visit to the dentist so i can keep track what colour i've used! haha.

2008-02-21T21:55:00.003+08:00

K7
HELLO hello aa brother :D
lihui
haha i only give you sweet stuff! haha. so sweet! yay haha.
benita
haha i just saw that shot. i didnt see it previously! well i have some i look retarded in too, haha.
lihui
yes! a lot a lot! i dont know why in jc we take so many photos :P haha.
nana
haha okay! i'll link you now(:
chengyi
me singing? where? haha.
kengyang
same to you! enjoy your business studies! hahaha.
lihui
hello hello hello hello hello hello back! :DDD

michael dsilva ;D my senior in cj whom i got to know by winking at him, wth. haha. but he's a nice guy :D

its o2 now. and i think o2 is just like mostly o1 repeated, just toned down. no more mud (so far) and papaya and detergent and sticky stuff.

the new mass dance is more... uhh. lets just say its more adult, HAHA. more nc16.

the lyrics are like >.<

but well. i guess the new dance is harder. but i like both dances! though at the start i preferred the o1 dance cos its not so confusing. haha. then the BANGLA DANCE :D wahaha.

my ig's okay i guess. i found my lame friend who introduces me to all of his friends so suddenly i know a lot of people. most of the 2nd intake people are pretty quiet. which isnt good! but oh well. hope we'll mix well! only two days left with each other):

then its back to stupid mugging.

lets hope ig27 gets high and enthu! (:

its better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all.

2008-02-18T19:43:00.004+08:00

missed out a few photos from rockafella - more photos in the post below this :D

kunwei's face damn funny, haha.

2008-02-16T22:20:00.016+08:00

to make up for my long absence... i've loads of photos today!

lihui
yep its super cool :D haha but wilson's not staying in cj): haha.
steph
whoa. haha. cj's so way back? what are your choices?
lihui
hahaha! of course! half of the love letter was written by me ;P
sacha
we talked! haha. didnt get to see you on vday): haha.
steph
haha. my friend didnt know how to draw the scissors mah. hahaha.
JJ
haha guess i'll be appealing for 4H2s. thanks! same to you(:
lihui
hello merry christmas! okay its very late. but better late than never :P hahaha.
eisabess
haha do i get a prizeeeee for winning! :DDD
lihui
happy valentines to you too<3 yep the card's quite sweet! but how did you know! you actually tasted it? :O

zzzz.

i just typed out a huge chunk and blogger ate it all up.

and i dont feel like retyping. so the photos shall speak for themselves, haha.

[edit - 110am]
i just remembered something i wanted to say a few days ago.

i was going through my sec3 and 4 papers.. and i realised i failed 80% of my tests (or thereabouts) and out of those i passed, most of them were bare passes.

the only one i passed quite consistently was english. nothing to be proud of - i just hope my jc life will be better. but of course need to work for it lahhh.

but
i really miss mrchow's loud voice. his cheeky smile, his encouraging touch and just everything about him.
i really miss jesselim's huge eyes and dragging of voice and wonderful chem classes
i really miss mdmsia's funny scoldings and ss classes
i really miss blim's nagging to cut my hair and her smile
i really miss kengyang singing songs next to me (i never imagined i'd say this)
i really miss going to the toilet with aswin and kengyang and kerong
i really miss playing psp in class with aswin
i really miss playing soccer with the guys
i really miss the cheeky smile of theodore and jingxuan and weijie
i really miss jasmine who's thousands of miles away
i really miss going to kfc with aswin kengyang kerong adelaine ces liwen josie and letts
i really miss the chalets and outings we had.

there i said it all.
i really really miss 4/1. ):

[/edit - 117am]

IG30 went out again to bjorn's house for a bbq :D we played ridiculous games and had ridiculous lame jokes. haha. the food was good! esp the beef and marshmellows :D

some of the 1T16 people accompanied me to fix my phone and all so we went to far east for lunch!

i was clearing my room the other day of sec3 and 4 stuff.. and whoa. the mountain's quite tall.

1T16 went vanessa's (the t16 vanessa) house on cny and her house has a pool table! i brought a watermelon (they said bring your fav fruit) so.... haha.

vday! the cookie gen baked. my curry puff (background) seems to be eating my cookie (foreground). looks a bit like pacman actually, haha.

my sunflower from vanessa (the yf vanessa) :DD haha.

rockafella! credits to hanif and nat for the photos.

hahaha its like a neoprint shop and our photographer would take every few sec, haha. FREE!

wilson pissed me off so :P hahaha no la.

they asked us to act emo and i think i fail horribly :D so it means i should just stay cheerful, hahaha.

t16! we couldnt take a nice photo, haha.

badly overdue YFcamp 07 photos! credits to ps wesley for all of them. sorry if most of the photos are of my group and music min but there are over 1000 photos, so i'll die if i uploaded them all. you can get the rest from :

http://flickr.com/photos/wesleysng/sets/72157603893197374/

http://flickr.com/photos/wesleysng/sets/72157603894629724/

qt on the last day!

i remember! this was the dare station, haha.

notice the heart shape! haha.

before ubin! we were making our sandwiches :D

i forgot when i fell asleep. haha.

and ps wesley has a knack for capturing unglam photos. like bigsam,

benita,

and wenyao. haha.

omega nite! the group photos :D

2008-02-02T12:02:00.000+08:00

hoho, i think we all screwed up our maths CA.

i went back for infocomm with liwen and jonathan on thurs, and i guess it was pretty fun. we have like lesser secones this year though. and they all look like the quiet quiet guai guai kind. but i think they'll reveal their true colours soon ;D

school's getting more and more fun, but the homework isnt.

and the tests. still deciding if i should appeal for 4H2s or should i go with 3H2s and 1H1.

cos i really want to do H2 econs but im afraid i cant cope with it.

ZZZ. how come i always have to make so many decisions :/

so oh well. friday was pretty fun. didnt really get to fence cos it was like more of pt. but still fun lah. yf was quite good too. oh well. IG bbq later:D

and we were so bored during physics lectures that we started passing love letters around ;D

no, we werent feeling emo, just thought it was corny, haha. it says cut along this line in case you cant see it - K7 couldnt draw the scissors ;P
and we were so bored during physics lectures that we started passing love letters around ;D so this was what jolene and joanne made up with some kuku scrap paper i passed to them, haha.this is another conversation between nathalie and i:D haha.

2008-01-30T22:06:00.000+08:00

my class is appealing to stay together after jae.

hope the appeal gets through, or i'll be staying in cj for nothing.

i pretty much hate tutorials now, cos i dont understand maths and physics and chem. and i missed the opening econs lecture on demand and supply. so i feel like im quite screwed.

and i've a damn ca on binomial and partial fractions tomorrow and im going to die.

and i've a stupid physics tutorial due many days ago, and i dont even know how to do it - im just copying blindly.

sigh.

just some T16 photos. there are hundreds of them (okay im exaggerating) so i only posted like a few. so this was one game we had to play. haha. it was meant to be between a guy and girl but since my class has lesser girls, some guys had to do with each other. so they got a shorter spaghetti stick. ;D

2008-01-28T14:45:00.001+08:00

lihui
there are more photos! but very very lazy to update :P hahaha. i help dominic say hi to you! wahahaha. though i dont know him, haha.
steph
haha i think it is! its beside hyatt i think. yeah. thats our ig jersey. we've gone out 6 times or something already. its like a weekly thing, hahaha.

haha theres a video of wilson (the campus superstar guy who's in my school and hcl class, haha) singing to weijie! its all the way at the bottom so you can watch it if you like :D

im on mc today ;D

must be the prata/curry/mutton/beef thing we had last night which was damn good but uhh. haha.

i guess i've decided to stay in cj. yeah. it better be fun, or i'm going to regret my choice.

my 3rd choice is NYJ, and i dont really want to get in there. and all the poly courses are behind my jc courses, which doesnt really make sense. i wanted to put some ITE course as my 11th choice and RJ as my 12th choice but my mom was behind me so.. ;D haha.

i hope i didnt miss out too much today. in jc i actually worry about missing out on stuff okay. in sec school i'll just AIYAH. today dont go school la.

oh well. at least i didnt miss out on the 5pm day (dont know if thats good or bad, haha.)

on the brighter side, i believe i skipped the higher chinese test ;D but i can be exempted from chinese from today onwards!

okay. i went little india last evening with my sunday school class. it was not much, but still pretty fun going out with them again. dinner was good :D okay not superb but its still nice! esp the... everything.

i went to play pool. havent played in quite a while, and this was what happened at kahseng and weisong's table. the balls are STUCK, if you can see, haha.

this photo actually looks freaky cos everyone's eyes look.. white. haha.

and the video!

2008-01-14T21:42:00.000+08:00

(i really need to apologise for the damn short tag replies cos... well. there are a lot of them to reply, minus the spammed ones, hahaha.)

meilin
haha thanks! uhh. happy belated new year? haha. very belated.
beni
...... haha.
junjie
haha thanks. now i dont know where to choose, haha.
xinmun
relinked(:
steph
updating like now, haha.
nic
haha thanks! :D we still have loads of IG outings, hahaha.
lihui + sac
hello too :D
lihui
and im updating now! hahaha.
sacha
yes yes yes! and i saw you on thurs! haha. hope we meet up soon :DDD
nat
hello! :D haha.
eisabess
haha okay later i'll talk about it!
sonia maooooooo
i never slack okay! minus off the first chinese test that i failed, hahaha.
lihui
yes you saw me on that day! uhhh. thurs i think, haha.
dominic
really? nice to meet you then, hahaha.
lihui
im updating nowwwwwww! haha.
steph
haha well. we all didnt do so well after all, haha.
lihui and eisabess
HAHA thanks for keeping my blog alive and away from... pixellated oversized maggots, haha.
lihui
im very happy to see you today too! and all of the rest of my wonderful juniors :D hahaha. and i'll try to visit you guys very often! yay.
steph
haha tyco one lah. maybe it was my tuition that helped, haha.
lihui
yes i remembered to update! :DDD

okay. im FINALLY back here, due to popular demand. hahaha.

yes i went back for oc this year! and im so envious lah. the tshirts so nice, the games are so nice, etc. haha. i quite miss it. and i saw eisabess! and xinyun! and many many other juniors that i miss! :D

but i didnt stay overnight cos i had to go for christina's birthday chalet at sentosa. so we went there and played and sang and just crapped lah. but i can feel myself getting older lor. i dont know whether it was cos of jc or what but i couldnt even thon properly for one night. after i reached home i just slept all the way until past lunch! haha.

let me see. i also went out with IG30 again to watch one missed call (my goodness.) which is damn freaky and still is very very freaky, and i couldnt really sleep properly for a few nights la. not so bad. but i was sick so i could sleep more easily. i left early cos i was feeling quite sick though.

what else did i do.. hmm.

went out with 1T16 yesterday to ecp! i think jc life seriously makes you tanner, hahaha. i dont know why. the pe, training, and the outings. we had quite a lot of fun though we quite wasted the cycling money, hahaha. i made them quite exasperated with all the yf stuff! can teach them the kuku games when we go out again, haha. i left early for yf again. but didnt play frisbee/captains ball cos my ankle and thigh was starting to hurt.

lectures and tutorials have been okay so far, but its becoming more and more boring. sigh. i just cant get used to the studying part :/

okay there are more photos. i'll upload them when i have them! haha.

going out for dinner now. I'VE FINALLY UPDATED ;D

arent you guys so happy! hahaha.

IG30 OUTING! we drove,

ate,

slept,

and watched one missed call! :D

1T16 outing!

we ate,

cycled,

and slacked :DD haha.

STRONG! some of us DOUBLE STRONG! (inside thing, haha)

this was... my prebirthday celebration. haha.

and this was my birthday celebration.

some orientation photos (more up soon)

and one stray shot of an IG30 outing a few weeks back(:

Love to Live, by Claudia Minden Weisz, the mother of a Rett Syndrome child.

I asked God to take away my pride,
and God said "No".
He said it was not for Him to take away, but for me to give up.

I asked God to make my handicapped child whole,
and God said "No".
He said her spirit was whole, her body was only temporary.

I asked God to grant me patience,
and God said "No".
He said patience is a byproduct of tribulations - It isnt granted, it is earned.

I asked God to give me happiness,
and God said "No".
He said He gives me blessings, happiness is up to me.

I asked God to spare me pain,
and God said "No".
He said suffering draws me apart from worldly cares and brings me closer to Him.

I asked God to make my spirit grow,
and God said "No".
He said I must grow on my own, but He will prune me to make me fruitful.

I asked for all things that i may enjoy life,
and God said "No".
He said He will give me life, that i may enjoy all things.

I asked God to help me love others as much as He loves me,
and God said "Ah, finally you have an idea!"

2008-01-05T23:16:00.001+08:00

i'll reply to tags tomorrow - im pretty tired now.

to sum up my past three days of orientation,
its DAMN FUN LAH.

it pwned my sec1 orientation from head to toe. i mean sure i enjoyed nh with 4/1 and infocomm and all, but this is totally different. IG30 rocks as much as you can ever imagine!

i wont bother talking about the games, there were too many. haha.

but honestly. like i heard in ac between boys and girls light must be able to pass through (eg cannot touch each other. haha.) then in cj the games and dances are centered around like making us touch each other. not so much in the wrong way, lah.

but its very very very fun. the only thing i dont like its that theres nothing to not like! okay. so maybe their food's more expensive than nh, the orientation tshirt isnt that great and maybe they're a BIT not organised at times? but thats it. other than that, everything's damn fun! haha.

cj's very very lame. its like. loads of stanleys put together (no wonder he was from cj) and its like a perfect fit for me ;D haha.

and the mud and soap and detergent and all... after the police academy trip, every J1 i know from cj got rashes all over (including me, haha.) but im quite lucky to just get it on my legs and hands. others like bjorn got it on his entire body. but even for me its like a lot a lot of it. and its friggin itchy.

oh well.

but IG30 ROCKS! we went out to the prata house at thomson there (i never realised it was so close from school even though ive been there so many times) and we had quite a fun time together.

to my dear igmates and facils, thank you all for making the first half of orientation so wonderful!
i love all of you: nicholas lu, sonia, rina, diana, celine, kym, chongyee, marianne, tiara, astrid, isabelle, stephanie, madeline, joyln, jean, heman, michael, bjorn, mahadir, carl, guoyang, chunyong, nicholas chang, kenneth and lin.

oh, not to forget, my ig's damn on (esp with a wonderful cheerleader :D) and damn lame too. haha. but anyway, i hope the next three days of orientation with my class will be equally fun (or even more fun!)

its like the deciding factor for me whether i should stay or go sa. i still havent decided yet. but meanwhile, nicholas (or whoever) had a few photos:

at audiex! the last time our full group was together officially. (oh well its not very full anyway)

at the prata place. the uncle quite on also :D

yay for cj anyway. flame on! :D

2007-12-30T16:44:00.000+08:00

siewkiang
haha. tagboard long so can read more posts mah :D haha. btw the cookies were nice okay! haha.
xinmun + siewkiang
thanks :DD
steph
its the ogl that calls mah. not the school. i dont know about nj calling back for briefing, but i know ij did..
vanessa
im feeling much better now! thanks loads :D haha. i look forward to more pool! yay. hahaha. thats one thing i can take consolation in! haha.
steph
hahaha. have. in sec2. and you dont turn up for all the stuff, 90th, grad nite, etc. how to take photo? haha.
yangping
thanks! you too(:

it hits me hard - im sixteen. yay.

anyway, no matter how i dreaded it, thanks to everyone of you who remembered (for those of you who didnt, dont worry. you still have 8 more hours to remember. haha.)

so in the order that i got them, thanks to:

hazel, bryan, my parents, lilian, yangping, zhiyi, lihui, jasmine kow, jenna, melinda, kityeng, xinmun, priscilla wong, josie, sharon, steph yeo, annabel, sacharissa, siewkiang, carol, daphne, chiuping, vanessa, ces, karen, tessa, chengyi, jiahui, cheryl, xianlin, vic, adejie, andrea, wenyao, tanYALEE (haha), jean, chuanling, weisong, liwen, ziting, yian, weijie, junjie, kahseng, jasper, xinyun, belicia, yilin, kaiying, eveline, kerong, isabell, crystal, joel, rachel, angelina, cheryl, yvonne, julia, ruth, samantha, steph liaw, kaiying, michelle lim, kianwee, wilson, cindy, joan, darius, aswin, gen, jolene, jonathan, eisabess, amelia, jess, jasmine, sacha and lorraine.

esp thanks to vanessa, lihui, steph, zhiyi and yangping for the blog posts! eveline, yangping and zhiyi for the msn PMs,

vanessa and jean for trying (and succeeding) in cheering me up, and the many of you for the cards and presents(:

sorry if i missed anyone out. just tell me if i did.

omega nite photos.

the joyous bundle :D

ouch :/

wu ling gao shou! :D

fu tou bang :D

wu ling gao shou no.2! haha.

haha check out vanessa's expression :D

we wanted to wear the same thing but... haha. some things didnt match :P

黑灰白！

music min! but not everyone's there though.

both of us plus the spice boys! wahaha. they won best dressed btw.

tarzan and jane :D

pa crew for christmas concert !

bankai! btw the fencing sword just couldnt go through the ground! maybe my reiatsu not enough. haha.

musicians for omega nite!

study group! :D hahaha.

same shoes! haha. coincidence.

food for thought. btw photos from my bday dinner will be up... soon.

The Room
Joshua Harris

In that place between wakefulness and dreams, I found myself in a room. There were no distinguishing features in this room save the one wall covered with small index card files. They were like the ones in libraries that list titles by author or subject in alphabetical order. But these files, which stretched from floor to ceiling and seemingly endlessly in either direction, had very different headings. As I drew near the wall of files, the first to catch my attention was one that read "Girls I Have Liked". I opened it and began flipping through the cards. I quickly shut it, shocked to realize that I recognized the names written on each one.

And then without being told, I knew exactly where I was. This lifeless room with its small files was a crude catalog system for my life. Here were written the actions of my every moment, big and small, in a detail my memory couldn't match.

A sense of wonder and curiosity, coupled with horror, stirred within me as I began randomly opening files and exploring their content. Some brought joy and sweet memories; others a sense of shame and regret so intense that I would look over my shoulder to see if anyone was watching.

A file named "Friends" was next to one marked "Friends I Have Betrayed".

The titles ranged from the mundane to the outright weird. "Books I Have Read", "Lies I Have Told", "Comfort I Have Given", "Jokes I Have Laughed At". Some were almost hilarious in their exactness: "Things I've Yelled at My Brothers." Others I couldn't laugh at: "Things I Have Done in My Anger", "Things I Have Muttered Under My Breath at My Parents". I never ceased to be surprised by the contents. Often there were many more cards than I expected. Sometimes fewer than I hoped.

I was overwhelmed by the sheer volume of the life I had lived. Could it be possible that I had the time in my 20 years to write each of these thousands or even millions of cards? But each card confirmed this truth. Each was written in my own handwriting. Each signed with my signature.

When I pulled out the file marked "Songs I Have Listened To", I realized the files grew to contain their contents. The cards were packed tightly, and yet after two or three yards, I hadn't found the end of the file. I shut it, shamed, not so much by the quality of music, but more by the vast amount of time I knew that file represented.

When I came to a file marked "Lustful Thoughts", I felt a chill run through my body. I pulled the file out only an inch, not willing to test its size, and drew out a card. I shuddered at its detailed content. I felt sick to think that such a moment had been recorded.

An almost animal rage broke on me. One thought dominated my mind: "No one must ever see these cards! No one must ever see this room! I have to destroy them!" In an insane frenzy I yanked the file out. Its size didn't matter now. I had to empty it and burn the cards. But as I took it at one end and began pounding it on the floor, I could not dislodge a single card. I became desperate and pulled out a card, only to find it as strong as steel when I tried to tear it.

Defeated and utterly helpless, I returned the file to its slot. Leaning my forehead against the wall, I let out a long, self-pitying sigh. And then I saw it. The title --- "People I Have Shared the Gospel With". The handle was brighter than those around it, newer, almost unused. I pulled on its handle and a small box not more than three inches long fell into my hands. I could count the cards it contained on one hand.

And then the tears came. I began to weep. Sobs so deep that the hurt started in my stomach and shook through me. I fell on my knees and cried. I cried out of shame, from the overwhelming shame of it all. The rows of file shelves swirled in my tear-filled eyes. No one must ever, ever know of this room. I must lock it up and hide the key.

But then as I pushed away the tears, I saw Him. No, please not Him. Not here. Oh, anyone but Jesus. I watched helplessly as He began to open the files and read the cards. I couldn't bear to watch His response. And in the moments I could bring myself to look at His face, I saw a sorrow deeper than my own. He seemed to intuitively go to the worst boxes. Why did He have to read every one?

Finally He turned and looked at me from across the room. He looked at me with pity in His eyes. But this was a pity that didn't anger me. I dropped my head, covered my face with my hands and began to cry again. He walked over and put His arm around me. He could have said so many things. But He didn't say a word. He just cried with me.

Then He got up and walked back to the wall of files. Starting at one end of the room, He took out a file and, one by one, began to sign His name over mine on each card.

"No!" I shouted rushing to Him. All I could find to say was "No, no," as I pulled the card from Him. His name shouldn't be on these cards. But there it was, written in red so rich, so dark, so alive. The name of Jesus covered mine.

It was written with His blood.

He gently took the card back. He smiled a sad smile and began to sign the cards. I don't think I'll ever understand how He did it so quickly, but the next instant it seemed I heard Him close the last file and walk back to my side. He placed His hand on my shoulder and said, "It is finished."

I stood up, and He led me out of the room. There was no lock on its door. There were still cards to be written.

2007-12-29T02:38:00.001+08:00

its 21 hours and 20 minutes to my birthday.

and may this
1280 minutes or
76800 seconds

be the slowest in my life, ever.

2007-12-29T01:20:00.000+08:00

steph
just cos malaysia's so much nearer and i visit it more often, thats why i shouldnt let israel stamp my passport to give myself inconvenience. haha. i dont know jj got send letter not.. apparently some jcs have some dont have. ij even asked their students to go back for a briefing.
eisabess
updated! haha. yay for you who smokes lollipops :D

so happy birthday to weisong!

we went to wenyao's house to bake cookies and brownies for weisong as his present. haha.

i saw this and i just knew i had to buy it!

we (wenyao wenhan vanessa and i) were trying to get things right.

this is for the peanut butter cookies! (which are pretty good btw :D)

ignore my spastic face. haha. but at times the peanut butter looked like...

this was for the brownies!

it just so happened that we were looking so vanessa managed to take a sneak shot. haha.

we had to cool the peanut butter mix.

look at the brownies! beside the peanut butter thingy.
wenyao didnt have anything to smear it so he just grabbed my hand and..

yeah. i left my mark ;D

we threw away one batch cos we accidentally burnt them. haha.

finally all done! :D

so all that was left was to deliver it to his house the very next day!

we meant to mms him this and put "weisong, we're on the 19th floor and we're coming to get you!" (inside joke) but apparently he was using his army phone so he didnt receive it :/

oh well. we had a lot of fun i guess(:

i received my letter from cj.

yeah. maybe its just the music.

2007-12-28T01:08:00.000+08:00

steph
malaysia's a muslim country and israel's a jewish country, and muslims and jews have been at war for many years already. haha.
hazel
im dreading that day still, haha.
xinmun, isabell, jingyi, eveline
thank you all(: merry belated christmas too!
eisabess
i never said you were immature :P haha. its just my name whatttt...

i have a lot of photos that i want to post!

but i cant yet. cos its secret for a few days. haha.

but anyway. i had fun yesterday (more of the fun playing with food) with two very nice people!

and im waiting for my letter from cj to tell me my ig. so at least i can know if i know anyone there.

and my prostreet isnt getting anywhere.

this isnt very good - im just wasting my holiday away.

2007-12-21T02:49:00.000+08:00

vanessa
yes i did. haha. isnt your sister coming back in a few hours? (: happy catching up! haha.
lilian
jasmine's going overseas. haha. china first then england if im not wrong. to study. and stay there.
steph
i started at 413am lahhh. haha. about 50mins later then i was done. and if i had stamped my passport, i wouldnt be allowed entry into malaysia.

sigh. arent you meant to look forward to your birthday? its the ONE special day of every year.

but somehow im not. so what if i can play pool? so what if i can watch nc16 stuff? i cant get back my happy memories anymore.

of course, unless i get happier ones in jc. haha.

2007-12-19T04:13:00.001+08:00

lihui
oh. hahaha. i just found out :D btw i posted my kindergarden photo in friendster! not the unglam ones though. haha. and that guy who's climbing that wall thing, he's like a joker! like my classmate. and everyone was shocked when he said he's a grandfather :P haha.
steph
haha. prepare for jc lah! i got friends studying for jc liao leh. scary. but im going to enjoy as much as i can first. hope its fun. haha.
sacha
yes! my goodness. i was only sectwo when i first talked to you! and look at both of us now :/ so old! haha. i mean. okay you're still very young but im feeling very old! haha.
chengyi
haha sorry! i think i was a bit blur when i wrote that so i didnt know what i was talking about..
jingyi
i havent tagged you for a long time too! haha. whoops :P happy holidays to you too! sec3 next year! hahaha.
xinyun
yes you havent! see lah! hope you havent forgotten me): hahaha. we had fun times last time okay! haha.
james
wah after i graduate so direct arh :P hahahah. never mind. at least you dont hate me now! yay. haha. and i see potential energy in you! and quite a bit of skill. so jiayous yeah:D
eisabess
haha YES! now i know what it stands for :D but i bet you dont know what it sits for! haha. nah i didnt lie on it cos it was getting dark and all. plus all the cuts and mosquito bites on my leg made it damn pain when i just stepped into there! but yeah. anyone can float. haha. except (i just thought of something mean but ahhh. haha.)
and i look sian cos.. i dunno. tired lah! everyday very tiring mah. i must go for a smiling course. :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD now not sian. haha.

and that, was a long reply. haha.
steph
nah we didnt have b3b4 chalet anymore. there im posting now! at 450am. haha. really got that sian meh? :/ haha. whoops.
lihui
yep i know! i saw! haha. yay. thanks! i replied all of yours. haha. and i said im going to sleep right? but i decided to blog and upload photos and whoa. its almost 5am. haha.

im back from YF camp! actually i was a week ago. haha. immediately after 1130 prac i went jasmine's house to stayover to send her off. sigh. it was barely a month since we saw each other but i missed everyone already!

oh we're meeting up to go back nh and go to school tgt. haha.

i got posted to cj for pae. dont know whether to feel happy or sad.
well.. happy cos at least ade kerong and weijie are there.
not very happy cos vanessa's in sa! haha. whoops :P and i dont know how cj's culture is, honestly. haha.

and joan's teaching econs there! haha. its going to be fun saying hi. :D haha.

oh well.

YF camp was pretty fun! though it wasnt as tiring as other years, though it was shorter than last year's, though our group got last place, but i made new friends! haha.

rose, kevin, stefanie, beatrice, belicia, sophia, persis, bryan, shawn, benjamin.

did i miss anyone out? :D myself! haha.

although most times we were pretty sian cos we didnt seem to win anything except the unimportant stuff, but it was fun spending those few days with them! haha. laughing with them, eating with them, etc etc.

though i pretty much screwed up pnp too, but it was fun and.. refreshing. haha.

still waiting for pswesley to post pictures so i can kope them :D haha.

im not going to go into details about the camp. i'll fall asleep at the end. but the food wasnt exactly great and the shower was like :/ haha. BUT we had one of the best lunches and best breakfastes in my four years there :D

AND, how could i forget to post pictures about our sentosa outing before i left for israel? haha.

AND, i realised i missed out some photos from israel. haha.

so the first thing we did was to terrorise the siloso without the oso.

the skies were really really grey and it rained a few times..

but we still had fun! yay. haha.

yes! more fun! (took us awhile to get this shot btw cos the autofocus refused to cooperate. haha.)

at times the wind was reeeaallly strong..

sometimes not so strong!

so we played asshole daidi in the pavilion :D

and now this! at the singapore airport, my boarding pass.

my passport isnt stamped at israel so they stamped on this instead. so theres no record of me going in there except in the computer systems.

it was raining the first day we got there, but it was good cos the dust could settle and the views would be better for us. btw, they hardly get rain and agriculture is important to them and the first day we touched down.. it rained?! haha. and i experienced hail for the first time! singapore doesnt have hail.

our first meal in israel! the falafel. we were all so excited about it but after 2 weeks i think im pretty sick of pita bread and everything in there.

but that's how they make the pita bread fresh from the oven!

and the stuff they put in there. the brown balls are vegetarian btw. but its nice:D

thats it. and... we went to send jasmine off:/ sigh. its going to be longggg before i see her again. maybe never.

okay thats it. im going to sleep. its 502 am. haha. good morning(: